I hate my step father to death!!!?

Hi Im jai i had a somewhat similar thing that was happening to me that recently stoped in 2009 when he died. i was tormented by this person for years pschologically, he did hit me once my mother made me appologize yes!! appologize. what i learned is if my mother didnt want to understand her childs pain then she really didnt care about me i cried to her many times but her focus was pleasing this man. he is also from the carribean ugghh to now i reseant anything from jamaica. i turned to all sorts of help i prayed i did all i could do to find a way out of the hell i was in and then i realise im letting him win he can go through his life comfortably but im always gonna be stuck with this scar so i started to fight. i was once a christian but i now realize god isnt real he wouldnt let me hurt or you would he. here is what you do. keep a journal write about all the things. look to music with the right music it can lift you up and change your prespectives on life look for a job anything move away or go stay with your dad i dont kno you just your story. be strong dont give up if you want to know some good music email me love yourself strong and understand youhave the key to your happiness